This morning i've had a juiced grapefruit and lemon
My god,,, this is a horror story which i shouldn't even share...
after the nice start to the day i proceeded to work and then ate about 1/5 a melon for my first break.. all was dandy,, 1 brought two small portions of my pasta salad i made from last night (see Diet Journal July 9th) for lunch, at lunch i ate one and was going to save the other for tomorrows lunch,, but then i ate it. still being hungry i decided to splurge as i been eating well for a while, i had some cooked roasted potatoes, but it didn't end there.. the horror! THE HORROR! i dont know what came over me but i ate 3 oh henry bars? where did that come from.. i haven't had dairy in forever, i blame it on....... myself... but its the past and its slowly on its way out. i wont feel bad about it. the horror story didn't end there tho as i purchased 4 bags of chips from the vending machine? omg i know.. its like its not even me writing and someone hacked my blog.... i shouldn't even post this. vital vegan? what the hell kinda vegan eats an oh henry and ketchup chips? today was the first dairy i've had since like... winter.. but i guess its significant as i try to get fully into this raw lifestyle, i had a major relapse and i think it is most to do with the fast i tried to complete. after eating raw for a few weeks iw as like" i got this raw shit down! and i totally though ti did, so i did a 5 day water fast which went fairly well as half way i had 3 apples within a few hours.. i was pressing for a whole week. a 7 day fast but at the end of day 5 i couldn't help it,, i juiced and then ate a few pistachios and those amazing pistachios that tasted like jesus were the best thing i even had in my life, the fast left my jaw unused for a long time so chewing actually was difficult, i noticed a huge difference like when u dont use a muscle for a long time.. it was weird.. anyways needless to say today is over and this is the diet journal from hell which is going to go down in my books as exactly what i dont want to do ever again,,, in the future when i fast and plan to i will try a week juice fast instead of doing straight to water as i dont want to relapse badly like i did today. as i try to push into this raw field i think it will be some time before i'm completely 100 raw vegan, it is my goal
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Don't worry about eating chips and henry bars..I stayed over at my brother's friend's place and he cooked a variety of meat dishes. After being vegan for more than six months - I ate a LOT of the meat dishes. As I ate, I thought I should not be eating this but I did anyway. I also drank tea with milk/sugar and ate ice cream as well. Oh well... :-)
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