What have I been doing?

Good question. It is kind of something I been asking myself a lot recently. Its been a while since I have posted and the last few food journal posts we not too inspiring when it comes to healthy eating. I been struggling with food for a little bit recently and its frustrating because I dove into the raw food world with little splash. It really was the perfect dive. After about two weeks of eating raw I got into juicing. As summer was beginning to pull out some scorching hot days, my meals consisted mostly of juiced greens with fruit added in for taste. It was really pumping me up full of great energy. As soon as some clouds materialized across the sky the summer nights quickly changed, and reminded me of fall. The rainy cool weather brought an essence. Fall now seems only days away and now most moments have familiar mood, a mood of change. The last few days have reminded me of the days where every night is a soup night. Since the change in weather a few weeks ago I been struggling with a 100% raw food diet. I tell myself that I do have the will power and mind set to not stray away from raw foods but I often find myself battling addictions and food cravings. If its in the house its hard for it to not haunt you. Needless to say I've replaced my roommates noodles she has, had stashed in the back of the cupboard, about two times now. My roommate is an angel. She took me in when I was in a complicated space. I have been staying here for almost a year now but I feel my time is up. Early next year at the latest I will be in my own place as she is expecting another family member around that time. I quickly started treading water after diving into the raw food lifestyle but found myself battling the waves in the deep end. The struggles seem to urge me to think of time for myself which I so happen to be celebrating right now. This is the first week of a two week paid vacation. I am going to use this time for play, doing things I enjoy doing even if the things I enjoy doing involve just a couch, pillow and my laptop. I'm going to just wander the next few days without making many plans because I been feeling to planned. In a repetitive daily pattern where the scenery which use to excite me no longer catches my interests.